A tragic History

Hi my name is Emma and this is my story…

This happened to me 4 years ago, when I was 11 years old I started I relationship with a boy 4 four years older than me, his  name was Harvey and meeting him is the bigger mistake of all my life….

We met on swimming classes, first we start talking to each other because he instructed me in my classes, then I start thinking I was falling in love with him, we start like friends, then it comes the winter and the classes were over, and we took different PATHS, we didn’t talk in years.

But then, one day I found her sister on Facebook and start to talk with her, she start asking me if I like her brother, I said no, but that was a lie, a few moments later i got a friend request, it was from him ... I accept it, that is only the start, we talk every day, every moment until sunrise.

One day, we were talking about music and he start sending me love songs, in one of that songs, there was a message below asking me if I want to be his girlfriend, I definitely said yes, we start a relation, he was so lovely at first, but then he start being so possessive with me, he had anger problems, I try to help him and it get results. That night Harvey apologized for his behavior and began to tell me how special it was, he began to flap my body, I felt weird but I felt sure of myself, he noticed it and asked me for photos, after which the conversation became a bit strange until I  receive a picture of him from his private parts, and then he told me it was my turn, doubt, but he manipulate myself to do it, I did it, it was the biggest mistake I made in my life, I was very silly at that age , we all really are, by God an 11-year-old girl sending photos to an alleged aggressive and possessive boyfriend with a girl who is just going to leave elementary school sharing photos of herself without clothes?

After time, we broke up, in we ended up in good terms but he never deleted those photos from his cell phone, I guess I forgot them, although I doubt it, but after a while he started dating a girl as much as possessive as him, she found that photos, and ask him about it, not before passing them to her, he said it was from her last girlfriend and that he no longer had contact with her, she didn’t believe him, and she published that photos he said him my name, at the instant she published that photos my life came down, all my friends, family and people I know have seen this photos. I start with anxiety problems, I didn't know who to express myself with or who to talk to, and my parents start to see me distant, I was starting freaking me out, I haven’t received one message of my friends or family, talking about my family I refer to my cousins, they didn’t have said a word to my aunts and uncles because all of us made a promise that consist in not telling nothing about the bad things we made to our parents, uncles and grandfathers.

But this was getting out of the limits, and I haven’t resist any more I tell that to my mom, her eyes crystallized and she couldn't say a word without her voice breaking ... she didn't think I could do something like that. My dad wasn’t at home, but when he knows he cry too, my heart broke in that moment, in my whole life I haven’t seen my dad never cry.

 They search for help and send me with a psychologist, when I start getting with her, I fell a little comfortable because she understand me and try to help me to cope it. All the `people that my parents contact, try to eliminate that from internet but the photos were on the hole in the entire network after all, it is a social network, a network, it is impossible to leave the posts are everywhere, after weeks I start feeling more comfortable with myself, passing the time the people start forgetting that post Harvey broke up with his girlfriend and he exposed her, not in a bad way, but he said that he realized what he really was, a person without feelings who would do anything to get what she wants. He apologize with me he knew that was not enough, but he was sincere with me. From that moment I start with my life again and I started my life again, even though there were still rumors about that, but I didn't care anymore they had helped me cope.

I changed my school I changed my friends and my family gave me a second chance.